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Reflections for a new year

On ease in existing

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Julia Edelman
Oct 01, 2025
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I love this time of year. It’s full of moments of reflection and perfectly warm end-of-summer nights. It also happens to be the Jewish holidays, and my birthday.

When my friend Chloe asked me over FaceTime what I planned to do for my birthday a few weeks ago, I froze up. I had no idea.

“You look like you’re in visible pain,” she said.

She wasn’t wrong. I was so unsure about what to do that my entire body tensed up. I knew it was silly. It really wasn’t that big of a deal.

But this was the first birthday I was spending at home with friends in a few years, and while organizing events can stress me out, also asking people to show up for me in this way sometimes made me anxious.

Which is another reason why I wanted to stay in new york this year. To gather with friends, and to feel grounded for the first time in a while.

A few weeks later, I had a small housewarming to celebrate my first apartment lease in 5 (!!!) years, and then a drum circle birthday picnic in the park later that weekend.

I felt so grateful to be surrounded by loving friends. To have such a playful, supportive community.

But I’m not just feeling reflective about my birthday. With the Jewish new year, it feels like a true reset in many ways.

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